Ahead

Every year we decorate our home for Christmas the day after Thanksgiving and take it all down on New Year’s Day. This morning, after a late breakfast of pancakes and bacon we got on task, pulling the empty storage boxes down from the attic, carefully packing up our pretties and returning them to the attic until time to bring them down again. We both have our jobs and work well together to get it done. A quick vacuum, some Endust, and within a few hours our everyday decor is set back where it belongs.

Everything is put back just like it was prior to Thanksgiving Day, but somehow the house looks different. Bare. Like there’s more to be done.

“We have to get used to normal again”, he says.

But what IS “normal”?

2015 was a time of growth, maturation and change for both of us. 2016 promises more of the same. I welcome what I know of the new year eagerly, expectantly. There’s more to be done.

Change is the new normal.

My sweetie is no longer my ministry partner in Community Transformation. He has a completely separate role now, one that puts his skill, talent and work experience into use yet offers him opportunity for continued growth and learning.  This change happened gradually over the last 6 months of 2015 but when I found out he was transitioning into a new role I instantly felt very much alone, walking a tightrope without a safety net. I was sad and scared silly. Looking back, those fears were completely ridiculous and unfounded. I had (and continue to have) access to leadership, guidance and support …. all I had to do was ask. We had developed a tight, capable team and had procedures and processes nailed down. Above all God was very much present and in control, so seriously, why fear?

I am not ashamed to tell you the changes that began in 2015 were God-answered prayers. By May of last year I knew I had reached a plateau of sorts …. not that I won’t continue growing and getting better over time …. but in order for real growth to be possible, for the ministry to get to the next level, we needed fresh new ideas. We needed CHANGE. From the deepest part of me I cried out to God over and over to DO SOMETHING, either take me out or give me what I needed to do the job, but I had exceeded my current capacity. God answered that very specific prayer, which freed me up to finish 2015 well and provide the room I needed to continue growing closer in my relationship with Him.

No pressure on Shari, but I know God is going to do amazing things through her leadership at LifeSong in 2016 and beyond! There’s more to be done.

On a more personal note, God is blessing our family with new life. The Stud Muffin wants to be called Poppy or Papa. I think I’ll make an outstanding Mimi or Mima.  Come summertime we’ll be making space in our home for a long-awaited grandchild. Our hearts are already prepared.

Of course there are those things I don’t know of the new year. Sometimes I think it’s a blessing that we can’t see. Regardless of what may or may not be …. “GOD, our God, will take care of the hidden things but the revealed things are our business. It’s up to us and our children to attend to all the terms in this Revelation.” ‭‭Deuteronomy‬ ‭29:29‬ ‭MSG‬‬

There’s more to be done.

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1 Response to Ahead

  1. Jeanette says:

    As always, Elena, beautifully written and expressed. Love seeing g your authentic journey and getting to be a part of it through your writings.xo

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